italian leather sofa

[mood: meh]
[music: I Will Survive - Cake]

So I got my report card today.
Sarcastic yay for me: I went down 10 marks in English, thanks to my stupid essay that I knew I did bad on before I even got it back. Oh, and my oral presentation. I hate oral presentations.
But real yay for me: I went up 5 marks in Law, making a 90.
I'm not super happy with my marks, mostly English and Gym. And music, for that matter because I only got a 90, but our band teacher this year marked harder, so she would have considered 90 to be a high mark. So I guess I should take that as a "good job!"
I shouldn't even be complaining about my high-80s and low-90s marks. It's funny; in one way I am such an overachiever, and yet in another way, I so don't care. I procrastinate over assignments all the time. I really need to get out of that habit!!
Anyway, in other news, I am starting work tomorrow. Table-cleaning, yes!!! I'm hoping not to get put on dishwashing much, but I probably will, because almost all the table cleaners dishwash every now and then. But the important thing is that I'm table-cleaning on Friday, which means I can go to the fireworks because I'll be off at eight! Hurray! Even if I'll smell like lobster! Everyone will just have to ignore that!

In honor of me being done of school, here's a poem that has absolutely nothing to do with school, and everything to do with me :)

My name is Tricia
Also known as Patty

My face is framed
By shoulder-length brown hair
That hangs limply unless it's blow-dried
My glasses hide my blue eyes
That turn green in the heat of summer
My chapped lips are constantly drenched in lip gloss
And my pink and green braces
Hurt.

I obsess over penguins, teapots, and "When Harry Met Sally"
Cold creamy ice cream makes me shiver,
But I devour it in the dead of winter, and
I am happiest in the company of chocolate.

I have a weakness for cheesy reality shows.

I would love to collect sand in Hawaii
Gaze at the green of the French countryside
Explore the canals of Venice, and
Race through the deep blue water at the Great Barrier Reef.

I will dance anywhere and everywhere
But dancing in the rain
Or on a beach by moonlight
Beats a school dance anyday!

I am scared by snakes, hornets, and wasps
And also by the thought of losing a friend
Over something stupid,
Or of having my heart broken.

I may be a pushover,
But don't step on my toes.

I am quiet, but I am loud!!!
I'm serious, but I love being crazy
I try to prove myself, but I don't know why.
I cry over nothing.
I want to be alone, but then I change my mind
So I talk to myself
To feel better.

My days are filled with learning, thinking,
Talking, listening, laughing, and trying
To be who I am
If I can figure that out.

I am Patty
Whoever I am, I can't change
And why would I want to?

3 days and counting

[mood: nervous]
[music: 'Romeo and Juliet' plot running through my head]

Taking a break from studying to say that I'm almost done!!! I have English tomorrow, Law on Monday, Chemistry on Tuesday, and I'm done for another year. :) On Monday, me and Sherry are going out for Chinese to celebrate being done (her) and almost being done (me). Beth, you and Matt should come too! It'll be fuuunnn!
In other news, guess who's going to be one of SADD's vice-presidents next year? Me! I'm so happy! Jonathan is the other vice, Katrina's going to be president, and Kayla will be secretary. I think Trina will be a good president; she shared some of my thoughts on what could be improved over this year, and I think she'll be good at implementing her ideas. As long as she doesn't let certain people boss her around (coughcoughSara).
Anyhoo, I should get back to studying. Later, y'all.

late night thoughts of an insane person

I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know how to act.
Because I am an idiot.
I wish I knew what you were thinking.

so fed up

[mood: angry]
[music: Paranoid Android - Radiohead]

Fuck. Fuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. GGGGGAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!
I am so fed up right now with our f-ing band. AGH! I don't even want to go into it because it will probably not convey my fed-up emotions, but I am just so sick of people expecting me and Lin to clean up THEIR crap after we have something to eat, or of people playing away at their instruments (won't say who this is because I don't want to betray their identities, but really, who the fuck cares?) when we're TRYING to work on a song TOGETHER. Oh, and of people looking at and talking to me like I'M the f-ing retard when I ask them what they were doing in the basement for fifteen minutes while the rest of us were upstairs TRYING to work on a song without them. They were "tuning." Really, they were doing shit-all and sitting on their asses and probably talking about the rest of us behind our backs. It pisses me off. I just read that and it sounds like they were making out or something in the basement. They weren't. It's two guys.
I have a chemistry test first period tomorrow. Crap.