broken

[mood: quiet]
[music: Hallelujah - k.d. lang]

Is it weird to want to cry for no reason? If so, I feel pretty weird right now.

This is such a beautiful song.

Christmas spirit

[mood: reflective]
[music: only the drone of this computer]

Tomorrow I leave Kingston to come back home. I must say, even though I had a fabulous time here with all my relatives and everything, it'll be kinda nice to be back home. I missed hanging out with people my age, especially since Dave and Stu left. But I really did have so much fun. I don't get to see my Ontario relatives enough. It makes me sad that I'm not very close with my cousins, but the fault is with the distance. I have Lindsay's e-mail, though, and hopefully I'll be a better correspondant than before. Me and Antonia are going to start writing to each other, too. That'll be interesting: my new pen-pal is a seven-year-old. She's so cute, though, and so is Philip. I love my little cousins.
I have to mention my 'Santa' present this year, cause it's something I've wanted since I can remember: a digital camera! I was so happy, I ran right into Mom and Dad and gave them big hugs, all the while going "thankyouthankyouthankyou!" I was soo excited. I also got:
-lots of nice clothes
-four watches from Aunt Pat
-'Chicago'
-two scarfs (one from Stu that he knitted himself!)
-the nicest bracelet from Grandma
-some cd's
And a whole bunch more that I can't even think of at the moment.
I have to go pack now. May the joy of Christmas have touched you and blessed you in as many ways possible! Toodles.

Snow day!

One of the best feelings in the world is to wake up and realize school's cancelled and you have the whole day to study for two tests you have the next day.
Of course then because everything's going so well, something in your house obviously has to make your allergies act up so you spend the whole day sniffling and without energy to do anything other than sit around and study.
Cynically yours,
P.

Sartre est stuuupiiide!

[mood: cozy]
[music: Something - Beatles]

Two posts in three days! A new record!
I finished my research paper last night. Frigging stupid. I wish I'd started it earlier, cause then i wouldn't have been up until 11:30 trying to get it done. I never learn from my mistakes; I'm still the worst when it comes to procrastinating. Now I'm trying to get this summary done for tomorrow on existentialism, which to me seems v. stupid, probably because the websites i'm looking at aren't explaining it well at all.
"We can't really define existentialism because there are so many views on the subject ... so, uh, here's a million-word long biography of this guy who didn't found it or anything, but he's responsible for it being so popular. We aren't going to explain how he made it popular or anything, we're just going to talk about his childhood for a bloody long time." Argh!
Anyway, whatever. It's not really a big deal, I just don't want to do a cruddy job on it, although it's looking like I might.
Ah, well.
When I find myself in times of trouble/ Mother Mary comforts me/ Speaking words of wisdom/ Let It Be

happy news, for a change

[mood: optimistic]
[music: The Dance You Choose - Aselin Debison]

Exams nearly killed me, no joke. But I got through them, and now this semester is half over. Only a couple more months until 1) my birthday and 2) my easy semester. Oh, and one month from today, Christmas spirit will have seized us all (except maybe Mr. Coady, because he's just not a very jolly person). Anyway, here are my exam marks:
French 98%
English 90.5%
Chemistry 83%
Math 80%

So happy with Chemistry! I worked my ass off for that exam, and an 83 is pretty dang good for Mr. T. I'm hoping against hope to get my final mark up into the high 80's in Chem, so wish me luck on that one.
I just typed out my research paper for English. It's nowhere near done; I haven't really gone over my rough copy, so it's horribly mangled and fragmented. I just wanted to see how long it was so far, and to my shock, I have 742 words. And that's without my conclusion, cause I haven't written that out yet. I have to fix it up tomorrow night and make sure I'm actually being persuasive, but I'm pretty happy right now.

I hate school

I can't believe it's been almost a month since I last posted. It feels like longer.
I'm getting so stressed about stupid school. Last night I listed everything that is pressing right now. Here goes:
Chemistry test, French report, English assignment, English paper, new chapter in math, Honors Band, regular band, SADD responsibilities, and mid-terms. All of these are coming up in two weeks or less, except for the English paper, which is due right after mid-terms.
This sucksucksuckidditysucks.
Oh, and I have to start applying for university/scholarships/bursaries soon.
Please tell me something good, anyone. It will make my day.

Advice: Go watch the sunset

[mood: wonderful]
[music: My Sundown - Jimmy Eat World]

What a glorious evening. What a magnificent sunset.
I love that it's October, 22 degrees, and that I just went for a walk in my sandals listening to my favorite walking music, Jimmy Eat World. Don't ask me why it's my favorite, cause I couldn't tell ya, but anyways...Can anyone picture me skipping and dancing down the road, belting out the words to "Sweetness" and dragging my dog along with me? Don't worry, he did his share of dragging me places, including almost into a ditch.
We ventured into a field right before we got home, and it was so beautiful. You have a great view of the highway from there. I know that doesn't sound particularly beautiful, but you're not picturing the distant farms and houses, the woods, the clover in the field, bathed in the glow of the sun...
On a night like this, it doesn't matter that I have a math test (oh, sorry, 'quiz') tomorrow, or that my french homework needs to be done. I can never resist the lure of a peaceful, solitary walk on a night like this. And I just had to document it, for some reason. This weather will surely not last long.